I think my family is falling apart.
My mom just made me afraid of her. I locked my door and she screamed and slammed on it and tried breaking off the door knob. I can’t leave my room.
I’ve come to realize that I can’t blame my mom for her anger.
She’s frustrated in life–she’s a single mother with a mortgage and a daughter in her twenties. Said daughter did not end up the traditional Armenian young lady, and sometimes that pisses her off (but that’s okay).
Telling myself that I’m not going to be living here forever is what drives me to be patient. If someone starts pushing at you with negative energy, you do not push back; you merely let them push against a force that doesn’t exist, and when they realize that they are pushing against nothing, they stop.
Knowing that I’ll be hearing the voice of a beautiful Australian soul for the next 5 days is making me crazy.
I’m genuinely becoming pathetic and I don’t want to do anything about it.